Luke Grown Up

Do any of you ever get that feeling? The one where you realize that no one is watching over you and that you’re completely on your own? It’s less a feeling of liberation and more a feeling of puzzlement and awe - that feeling. I’ve been getting that a lot lately, especially this semester. But coupled with it is a fear that I’ve never really felt before. This is the beginning of the rest of my life, and I’m only now realizing that. The choices I make right now are going to affect the course of my life. Beyond that, there are so many choices that can be made, but which ones are the right ones? Which ones?

I’m at a point where I’m not sure which decisions to make. But I have to commit to something - otherwise, I’ll end up failing at everything. Not good. I’m in an open field with a haze in the distance due to the humidity. Which way do I go? What do I choose for my life? Do I order the hamburger or the pizza? These things haunt me.

But you know what, it doesn’t matter. Whatever I choose I will make work in one way or another. I’ve got a lot going for me, and I know how to use it. Okay, I have no idea what I’m talking about. It’s 1:30 in the morning, and I am tired. I’ve been up for a little while typing away, trying to get myself tuckered out. I think I’m there now.

Good night.

Oh, and keep reading the blog - I should be updating them all more regularly now (including The Schedule, which I updated tonight).

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